Victory!!! (Sometimes I'm a little roller coaster)

YEeeeeeeeeah! So I had Math class tonight. One of everyone at SFAI's dumbest class. Good thing we all didn't take things too seriously, cause it was soooooo good, and a lot of people presented work in ways that they most likely would have never tried. It was pretty stupid, but pretty awesome. There was a moment it felt like high school, maybe even middle school (Smh). We all just became really teenage.
I guess it was just something about presenting whatever to the (asshole of a) teacher, but giving just enough effort to salvage your reputation as an educated artist, that made it all fun.

I really really really like the piece I did! I made it in less than an hour (ssshhh!). It is a video, but mostly audio piece I did that last about ten min, but I may shorten it. I'll post it up tomorrow.
Maybe it was just the fact that we knew that our work wasn't gonna be viewed so critically, but just plain ol' seen/heard/experienced. That's it. Quite refreshing. I'm supremely appreciative of the wealth of formal critique I've gotten here at SFAI, but feels damn good sometimes for people just to enjoy what you give and move along.
(Man, I be writing a lot these days....)

Though this last math class was unexpectedly fun, as was the work shown, it is definitely NO testament to it's shitty teacher. (That's not cool. I was all talking Jesus Jesus, and God this n that in the last post, now look at me. Roller coaster, I tell ya...lol)
Please, SFAI, kick this dude out and keep people from wasting their time and money.
We don't need to pay for not learning anything.
We can have people see/hear/experience our work and move along for FREE!
(hhhah - aaah)

Well, til tomorrow, Sleepy times for me

Peaces!
Peace
peace

So I wanted to go out with a bang

Just a short one (cause I really need to get to school). I was feeling like venting because of my performance yesterday, I htought, was so bad. I'm still glad I got it out my system, but I'm wondering was it did I really need to do that anyway? I didn't sing so well and conceptually the context felt really awkward. For the performance I sang "How Great Is Our God" while playing my guitar. It lasted kind of long, but that's ok....but I kinda wish it didn't. It just sucks struggling as an artist/christian/person trying to figure out and give in to doing exactly what you like and need. It sucks not being affective in the way you dream of (unifying people), but rather affective in making people uncomfortable... Was never my goal. So that's just where I have perceived myself to be unsuccessful. It happens.Best thing is to just get up when you fall. And keep believing, even when all the optimistic talk sounds so cliche that you wonder if it's true.

I have a friend, Michelle, who has seemingly dedicated to believe in and stand behind her art no matter what. So if people like it or even if they don't, she's always gonna love it. I hope someday soon I too can reach beyond believing I need people to validate the success of my work or even of my life. Since I've been here at SFAI (in San Francisco), a lot of my performance work has dealt with me attempting to connect with people...sometimes more than others on a really affectionate level. I'm tired of trying. I give up. I "give it over to Jesus, and I stop worrying about it. Gave it over to the Lord. He worked it out." God knows my heart. I'm gonna trust him with where I'm going. I'm thinking if only I would have let go a bit and just done the (bright,colorful, crazy, bombastic) work I love to do (knowing truely that God loves and approves of , and will guide me) all that social "experiential" stuff would come with it. I could look back on all my efforts and failures at trying something new and cry at how much I think they sucked, or I could be thankful that I got through that part. I can be proud that I tried. I stuck my arms, head and legs outside of the box enough to clearly see what I really want. All that's left now is to go for it!
I'm alright!
Aaah no downward spiral today. no!
I just really needed to vent.

I talked to J about how I hated my performance and how awkward it was, and she mentioned that possibly the reasons for me being moved to do it are not yet revealed. (I'm sometimes hesitant to mention "God" in the religious sense, now because I get a little confused or misunderstood)

It's helpful to know I'm not the only misunderstood person here in this dept:
I found out this morning: It's the national day of prayer. Obama allowed it to go forward today, despite the ruling of it being unconstitutional because of separations between church and state. There's no public ceremony. Obama's praying in private. You can read more here:
http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-503544_162-20004321-503544.html

It may not be for some, but I could sure use to pray. But that would be any day. Not just today.
I just want some peace and knowledge of self. Peace peace peace. God bless us all.
Off to school now.

I LOVE ME!

Just needed to say it aloud!

...in that healthy, non-narcissistic, loving way we all should treat ourselves.

I love me most when i try. try and try again.

C'mon say it with me. I - Love - Me!

(times is hard chile.lol, I gots to keep my head UP)

THis is a quick photo from Risa's Kitchen. Morning breakfast. We sang her fried rice. She cooked us Waffles and eggs. It was good!

more to come (organized)

Down to the wire! Keeping my head to the sky!

(lol sounds like a facebook news feed)
Not much time to post something really cool, but just wanted to say something since it's been a few days. This Friday night's show in Blaze's kitchen was awesome!! Real good time. Now I've gotta write about it in 2 hours and submit my grand idea for the BFA Spring Show. I could freak out, but I'm not. That won't get me any further ahead. Besides with God all things are possible.
Ok there's soooooooo much video and audio that I've been wanting to post, but have had no time. Here's a photo, at least.....well even that's taking long.
Well, still looking up til next time.

Baby girl needs a break!!!

So i found this pair to groove me for a bit ;-) Aaaaaaaaah, take me outta the four white walls please! THANK YA!


And also! Sundy Bess' 2nd and 3rd Kitchen stop this Friday coming up!!!
Poster coming soon. Again, it's gonna be a "fucking down home time", in the words of a friend of mine. Gonna be soooooooooooo fun!

ME n J were talking about God

I was mentioning to her about being cautious and appropriate about talking about God. Being in the world but not of it, and all that. I just was thinking about it because I don't want religion or language to deter people from Christ's intentions through me or the love that I intensely have for everyone I know. You know. Everyone doesn't share the same experience as I do. I guess it's good to check your intentions. Even my pastor said "You don't have to be holy Hanna", just because you believe.
I'm in this band and at first I even, briefly questioned singing "secular songs". Ridiculous! Even now as I type, I feel kinda cautious. errr I'm just really sleepy. Anyway, I'm just so tired of being so cautious........Just a thought. All apart of the journey I suppose.
don't want to end on a bad one.
Peace peace peace peace peace!
Love love love love
peace
love
the universe
Collective consciousness
zen n nirvana
Jesus
God
Love
Love
Love
Love

OH yeah!!! Get it girl !! Get it get it girl!!! Thankya Law!

...for ya grace and mercaay!!!
Last night was the first show stop on the Sundy Bess (yes, I went with that one. You like it?) Kitchen Tour!!! and AWESOME CRAZY AMAZING IT WAS!!! (did you see the flyer)
Went to Michelle's house. She sho can fry some chicken. Best Fried chicken I've ever had, made from scratch. AND Jalepeno corn bread. Bonkers! She cooked the whole time we played! She was so Sincerrr. Like never stopped. She says she thinks she cooked 10lbs of chicken. Half or ten, it was good! The band rocked! We were just rehearsing but it got really intense so we counted that as the show. It was fa sho soulful. Thanks Lisa, Michelle, Sergio, Carlos, Janella, and everyone there (lol Hilde, Jenna Lee, Luke, Sapho, n Foxy, errbody) for making it happen. Good times. I's proud of myself for believing and trying. And thankful to God for calling me to use what he gave me. It was good chile. (lol i am sooooooo rambling lol ha ha). Oh, another thing. This was Sunday that we performed. So i went to church that morning, and I got there late, right when the holy spirit overwhelmed everyone. Intense! Anyway, the last thing the pastor said was "I just wanna leave you with this: God is working everything out!!" He said that like 3 times or so. You know that "Jesus can 'work it out" is the first song in our set? Call it coincidence if you want. God's good! I just glad that we're in his will.
Here's some photos we took, but there's so much more coming up (videos and such).
Got 3 more shows to go. Gonna Knock em out this weekend/next week.
Yeah! Keep yo faith light oooooonnnn, baby!!!!!

Shoud I post?

Was thinking not to post cause I think, right now, it's a form of procrastination of all the finals i have to complete!!! AAA h aAhh!
Anyway just finished rehearsing (and hour ago). It was good, but we were all tired. We'll be amped for the show tomorrow though! Gonna be good!
I'm still sleepy.

Welllllll, recordings and more footage to come.......

Hallelujah Jesus..

Oh and Kalup's open studio is tomorrow. Should I go to church or see Kalup (one time only)? Decisions decisions
"Jesus Can work it out"

ok I'm out. Off to study!

OOOohh! I'm sooooo excited ya'll!!

It's going down at Michelle's this Sunday!!!

Yeahah!

Snag this poster...if you can't read the text.

We couldn't decide on a name for this band in time for the poster so we've got 3 names.

Let me know which one you think is best. (for real, in the white box below...lol)

K so they are:

Faith,

Sundy Bess

Daddy's Girl

K those are the names let me know "who you think is America's next Top Model"

lol

Peaces!

Yeahhhhh!!

Yeah, yeah you got it! Yeah, you got it!

A little procrastination going on...kinda (this blog is my piece remember)

MMMmm chile after I graduate I'd like this one to not be so much of a simulation at all.

East coast has to Youtube it, Hulu it er something now; but the best in the west should tune in to quite the awesome man, Mr. Hill Harper on CSI: NY tonight. (His character get into some serious craziness this episode) AWesome! So tune in.

...lol and tell Hill to call me! lol......

Don't want to say too much. He's one of my collectors now.

Really real, awesome, talented guy. Check it:

Now it's time fore me to get back to graduating ;-)

oh! Just wondering, You can "comment" right? in the lil white box at the bottom?

Yeah?

lol..

Breathe Breathe Breathe

Breathe Breathe Breathe Breathe. Release Release.

Breathe Breathe Breathe

Breathe Breathe Breathe Breathe. Release Release.

The BAND!

Coming to a Kitchen near you!

Gotta get back to work.

Kinda procrastinated a bit today after class. But need to get back to work.....hmm this is starting to sound like facebook. No bueno. This is supposed to be different! right? right?

Aaahh! I try.

Ok. I'll be honest about his kitchen tour band thing.....eh.

I'll be patient.

(I pray that it's get even more guttural, and relieving, and explosive.)

Yeah patience. Yesterday came together pretty amazingly smooth.

YEah!

STAY INSPIRED!

It's ON Like Popcorn!!

First rehearsal tonight was awesome!!! We did gospel and soul songs (my dream!) . recorded the whole thing. Everybody got their parts really quick. Everyone was super enthused about it. No one was like " i gotta go dude". Super good! We took photos! It was a great awesome cool boom boom boom tam!!!
Thanks Lisa, Sergio, and Carlos!!!!
And to think I was gonna drop this class. God is good!
Soooo, rehearsal audio and photos coming up!
Next rehearsal's this Thurs.
Got a real good group. Thankya Jesus!

Here's our playlist so far (we're doing covers) :

-Jesus Can work it out
-This Little Light of Mine
-River Deep Mountain High - Tina Turner
-Simply Beautiful - Al Green
-(maybe) What'd I say- Ray Charles
-(maybe) Across the Universe - Beatles
-(maybe) Tired of being alone
-(maybe) Come on in my Kitchen
Might try to get some people from the choir at church to sing at the opening exhibition at Queen's Nails Annex
Sooooooooooooooul Power!

Yeah!

One more thang,

Just BELIEVE got damnit! Just BELIEVE!!!!!
HE'S got your back, aaaaaaaaaalllll the time!!

About this Kitchen Thing...

Today's the first rehearsal! Way too excited and now need a lead guitar player! It'll happen.

It's gonna be awesoem can't wait for tonight!

(Up top)

last friday at the Kalup show...too good! See him sitting there..with the flower in his hair.... (thanks Laura!)

Yay Kalup!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!
I saw Kalup Linzy last night at BAM. Check it..


More kAlUP!!! I love it! You should see him live..so much better
Thank you Kalup for making me laugh and insoiring me. You are my true art upscale n round the way hero! Work!



Thank you Kalup! Now I know I can truely do anything!
Kalup's an awesome video and performance artist known for his playful personas around gender, sexuality, race, class, and popular culture, will lead the audience into rapture.
(they ain't my words...from youtube. Just not enough time in the day!)

Now I'm off to hang out with a friend I promised to hang out with, BUT I really need to read.
AAAAHhh sucks.
But Kalup was good last night.
...Need to prioritize.

I ain't no chwing GUm!

Saw Kalop tonight! It was bomb!!! Oooh I'm about to blow up! I'm about to blow uo! I'm about to blow up!

3 am ...sleepy time.

The Sun Is Shining!!

Ok! No long intro! no time for that. I HAVE A BAND!!!! and our first rehearsal is this monday!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!
Busy day...busy month, to put it short, Juilio (Morales), my installation instructor says he won't let me drop his class and he's not going to fail me. "I just want you to go with your instincts. Trust your instincts and filter out" , he says!!! I'm so happy. God really be using people!
thankya Jesus!!!!
So the only idea for the final project that came as a natural feeling to me (I just farted in the startbucks..I'm so happy! Releasing in all kinds of ways!!) was an idea I had the first day of class, at the beginning of the semester, but I thought it was stupid. The idea for my "installation" is to perform as a band, a tour peoples kitchens. Well it's ABOUT TO GO DOWN!! NEXT SATURDAY IS OUR FIRST SHOW!! It's gonna be a real funky hot finga lickin good time.

I must be on my way now many things to do, now.
There's this song playing around me now in starbucks saying "Nothing's gonna get me down. Nothing's gonna get us down!"
true dat my country singin brotha!

Let me be a testiment to how great God and His grace is. He turned a situation where I was consistantly performing extremely poorly, was gonna drop out of the class, to having the time and dream of my life ( and other's lives)being able to share it with people i love, ALL WHILE getting college credit and Bachelors degree for it.
Now that's GOD and Art for you!!

Hallelujah Jesus!
Let's Rock!
Let's go BOOM!

When things get hard keep your eyes toward the hills, from wich your help comes. Look up!

Make me wanna dance like dis!