The Sun Is Shining!!

Ok! No long intro! no time for that. I HAVE A BAND!!!! and our first rehearsal is this monday!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!
Busy day...busy month, to put it short, Juilio (Morales), my installation instructor says he won't let me drop his class and he's not going to fail me. "I just want you to go with your instincts. Trust your instincts and filter out" , he says!!! I'm so happy. God really be using people!
thankya Jesus!!!!
So the only idea for the final project that came as a natural feeling to me (I just farted in the startbucks..I'm so happy! Releasing in all kinds of ways!!) was an idea I had the first day of class, at the beginning of the semester, but I thought it was stupid. The idea for my "installation" is to perform as a band, a tour peoples kitchens. Well it's ABOUT TO GO DOWN!! NEXT SATURDAY IS OUR FIRST SHOW!! It's gonna be a real funky hot finga lickin good time.

I must be on my way now many things to do, now.
There's this song playing around me now in starbucks saying "Nothing's gonna get me down. Nothing's gonna get us down!"
true dat my country singin brotha!

Let me be a testiment to how great God and His grace is. He turned a situation where I was consistantly performing extremely poorly, was gonna drop out of the class, to having the time and dream of my life ( and other's lives)being able to share it with people i love, ALL WHILE getting college credit and Bachelors degree for it.
Now that's GOD and Art for you!!

Hallelujah Jesus!
Let's Rock!
Let's go BOOM!

When things get hard keep your eyes toward the hills, from wich your help comes. Look up!

Make me wanna dance like dis!

Today was awesome!

This is a Great song! Tina, Ike...Tina!



Today was rah good. Got my sing on in class again, and made a great connection with everyone in the room. Damn. No documentation though...except for what I'll write here.
So hmmmmm so much to say. So little time before bedtime (yes. I set myself a time. Gotta stay alive).
Well listen to this for now. Brb.

don't doubt

NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO DOUBT!!NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO DOUBT!!NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO DOUBT!!NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO DOUBT!!

I need to go to sleep..l.lol

Man I wain't posted in for mad long!

This is cool. SunRa's version of the song (from Fantasia, I think....no Dumbo)

Ok. Not sure if that video is gonna show up or not. But "great!" if it does. See that's how long I've been away from this thing. I should know exactly how to load a video, my own videos, by now. Whatever. just a part of the freaking out process. I am sooooo nervous to graduate. I've held in a lot for whatever different reasons these past two years at SFAI. Just a lot of that gutteral hardcore honesty that i feel that art school, especially art school gives you freedom to do. WTF? What the WTF's wrong with me?!!! (Banging my head against the wall) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!SHit!!!!! Why am I so scared and in a box allllllll the f^*#ing time!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!! There's my piece.



So after watching this I don't think I'm so bad. It's good to objectify yourself sometimes. ANyway Me n Erlin were jamming tonight. and make some cool stuff. Most of it was his own work, but I through some stuff in. eventually we both knew that I was holding in sometimes. I find it hard to break through. It's just a few weeks til graduation and It would be quite the finale if I could walk out of here with some artwork that I'm genuinelt proud of. Like leave with a bang! (I guess this blog is it. then it starts ringing in my psyche my instructors and fellow students -----never referred to anyone as my fellow sudent before ------critquing about narcissism. Oh well.

Stay inpired. Then do something you feel. Stay inspi r ed i n sp i red i n s p ir e d i n s p i r e d i n sp i r e i n s p i r e d i n s p i r e d S ta y i n s p i re d N o t h i n g w i l l t u r n t o s o m e t h i n g i f y ou t r y Y ou wi l l h a ve n ew l i g h t I t w i l l c h an g e y our l i f e



so what the video didn't load. so what!

Today I made a installation mom!

Ok first of all I love this song:

(and this woman looks like my grandmother)

2nd, My teeth are clean:

3rd, I made this today: (and if you're in sf you should come)

oops...

let's try again.

4th, I did this mini sound installation in the new genres bathroom at school tonight, but I have no documentation of it. Sucks. My phone was dying, even, so I couldn't eve n get a camera phone shot or proper recording. You press this button on the "heart" to hear the audio. The piece is a little 10 or 15 second audio playback of me singing "the best feeling is sweet release". Or something like that. It was late. But I am singing something about "release", and since it exsist in the bathroom, and personally (personal, bathroom personal private space/ happening..just thinking) I've been holding a lot of myself, my talent, and honest emotion in this semester "release" would be a good theme/thesis to pick up on before the rest of the semester gets flushed.

So tonight I've started small. It's a start. and now I at least have a springboard to jump off from.

Release!!!

5th, God is good and I am sleepy..

Peaces!

WTF! 47 days?....gotta find Chocolate dandy

OMG! It's 47 days left 'til graduation! WTF! WTF have i been so scared of that i'm not filling up the time with all my good good! ( I gotta get my nails did. lol. something true must burst forth before the end. Little, small, or medium...it's got to manifest) Ok. So i've got a little anxiety. I'm just gonna look toward the positive.
I had this wake up call yesterday of how I should never doubt myself, especially when it comes to art. I was kinda kicking myself because I had wasted so much time worrying about what other people think, that I it hindered my work, honesty, and who I truely am. I really gotta stop that.

It'd probably help to do some art that has nothing to do with me. At least, not directly.
"THE CHOCOLATE DANDY" Man! I must find him. Have you ever seen that super colorful drag guy in the mission. It's good drag though. Like really beautiful! I don't even think it's drag, just costume I guess. Well I've only seen him like 3 or 4 times in really unrelated places. He's like some kind of butterfly that passes your path, fluttering by. I MUST FIND MY CHOCOLATE DANDY MAN! SAVE ME CHOCOLATE DANDY MAN!

Anyway more to say but I've got a dentist appointment.....and I can't be late!
Peaces!

Ok so it's been awhile. Man be stressin. I know I shouldn't but sometimes I do. It's such a stifling thing. In the midst of it all. I've still been making some work. (This blog was supposed to be an everyday thing. I'll have to change this habit of rejecting my blog........because my videos won't load) It's late, early nearly 3 am. I just want to post something. So here's something. Some stills of video (if I can ever get them to load) documentation of a song I sang in class. I have made it a requirement that I start each Wednesday morning off with a song. It's my way of helping me to get to class on time (since I am the first to present "work") and keep up the momentum of performing/ singing in front of people. With each song I want to get better and better, while becoming more aware of the space and myself and the audience's body. Sometimes I ask the class to join in. This is a sample of this past wednesday. I sang a gospel song called "One More Chance". Soon you'll be able to hear it. (Can anybody hear me out there?) Hello!

This was really a jovial moment, and I thank God, but I want to get bolder and even more interactive with the audience. So we become, in some way, one in the same. Like blurring those lines of spectacle and spectator. Patience...patience.

This helped me sooo much / and I thought this was interesting

This helped me sooo much. You gotta listen to the words...especially the second girl. I feel exactly what she's saying. Thanks God!

Look Up - Tye Tribbett




And I thought this was interesting

GOd in Me

Long and lovely

Hello! I'm gessoing canvas, er wood panel, and concocting something new! I believe I'm getting back into my groove. Just gonna do it! I'm thankin bout gettin my nails did! long and lovely!

Inspired!

Hola! Went to see the Alvin Ailey dance Co today in Berkely (courtesy of a good friend). It felt really good to see some awesome choreographed dance. (I've been hipsterfied and intellectualized for too long...So it was great to see some craftmanship and soul! I got inspired. There was this one piece titled "Dance Spirit". I reeeeeally loved it. (here's a sample below) In one part of it, while the woman is dancing, there's this version of Radiohead's "Everthing in it's right place"played with only strings. I really love that song. It was good to see people communicating passionately with their bodies...I was much more overjoyed by seeing this show than I'd like to admit...like a child. (thanks Dante ;-) Seeing the company perform again, at this time in my life..in Cali..near to grad time...man I really feel a push...to be free n make a real positive mark in this world. The whole time I watched I just had this feeling of yearning to be more free, to rise higher in my spirit, in this world, in my life, my art, in giving love, letting God use me more, in opening up n letting go. This blog is helping me go public, gradually (if i can ever get any followers. lol) I'm starting to take off and that feels good.

ok ok Check out the dances..




Look at this guy. Beeeuuutiful! Look how he rises up off the floor!

Aaaw Yeah!! Something New!

I realize that I put these post up pretty fast and with immediacy. I guess that was my intention to begin with.

Anyway, it's still kinda daunting, to me, to throw up something online so personal. Blah blah. Ok no more

time wasted. I've got an audio recording today! that I just mixed. Thats me on the guitar. I recorded then mixed

it just a bit. It's a simple dreamy tune, I've titled "Dreamy". I've just been playing around with somethings I've

recorded (guitar, vocals, field rec.) I am doing a lot more. I glad to put this up. I won't give any disclaimers and

I won't shoot it down to protect my ego. I've got start somewhere. So here goes. (Day 6)

Dreamy

Additionally I want to remember the other beautiful facets of art...that it's not just isolated, solitary object making.

I kinda miss the social, experiential parts. Either that or I just need to go party a bit! Hey! Hhhmm sounds like a nice

piece. B-day's coming up!

I'm sllllleeeeepy yo!

And thank you, dear reader/listener/viewer, for spending a little time :P

More to come...4 real!

Once again a very late night post...no images...no video for now...missed my post yesterday. My computer has been rejecting my video.. WEll everything for a reason. Amidst this, I've been having really good productive days...probably why I get to this blog so late. Eh, so this text is what's up for the night. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

faith says "Hello!"

Faith

You don't necessarily need to take a vacation at the moment of every little problem. Have faith, and keep living. Just like that....

Today was awesome! And right now it's bedtime.

Today was a superrrrrrrrrrrlative day. I spent the beginning of it with Dante, with whom I find I have a great amount of effortless artistic synergy. It'll be awesome to see what we do when we plan and choreograph a piece. We had a great time today jamming out. I sang and he danced. God was in the midst, celebrating with us. And it was good. Our documentation of our jam is my piece for the day (Hallelujah! it's happening!) The video is on the way.

I think that's enough. I was really tempted to go through all this effort to post a pic, but it'll be more relevent later. ...naw I'll post it. I'm excited about it. I checked this out today to record some vocal stuff. Just a really old cassett recorder. Haven't recorded anything yet. I'll be stirring up something tomorrow. Along with all my excitement (which is great...cause sometimes it's not always there), I pray for patience and perserverance.

So I'm really sleepy now. Lol.

Thank you Lord for all that you've given me and all that's to come. I'm excited!

Aaaaaaaaaamen :)

One more thing real quick: It just seems kinda crazy to be sharing this much of my life with...whomever. feels kinda crazy. I mean like typing as if someone is really out there listening. It's different from a website, obviously. But it is the countdown til graduate art school. So I guess I just gotta see it as all art. especially vomitting myself onto a webpage...in addition to my "art". So this (blog) to is one of my pieces. Just really feels kinda ...different I guess putting it all out there....online. Maybe it's the online aspect...My life online. K...reading to much into it.

Very sleepy

Peace. to whoever you are.....my "audience"

....my audience is me?.....

aaahh sleepy byes...sleepy peaces

This is the beginning of the end of the beginning. And the beginning of a new!

Boom! There I said it! I have just gotten the rocket sheep off the ground! (I'm a Rocket Sheep! I'm a Rocket Sheep for Jesus! ) I'm sitting here in my kitchen with...well, he'll be back. Dante just went to the bathroom. I'm feeling the need to just vomit this new beginnig out or else I think I'll never get it out...or it'll all be pretentious or something er other. Oooh! He's back! Say "Hi" DAnte, "dante is here and he say hi yaw. thisnis ,me." he types.

So this blog serves as a countdown of my work and..expression...and (ok don't think so much kells) until Spring 2010 graduation. Oooooooooh yeah. So prepared for that! Oh yes!

I am committing to post something everyday, no matter how dumb or great I think it is. Even Micheal Jackson had his wack songs ...."The gosh darn girl is mine." (sorry. I am under 30 years old. Mike didn't really do for me on that one.) So yes one of those might pop up on the scene, but God willing, I'm gonna get some Thrillers (ok so me n Dante just took a lil sing a long break. Go head you know you wanna hum some thriller).

Okaaaaaaaaaaaay! oooh hey! I got 69 days left! Mmmh hmmph. oh yes. I do not mind. I do not mind that that 69. ok.

(Hope thats not too much for the church folk. I am saved. A Rocket Sheep for Jesus...just vomitting you know, and accepting aaaalllll of me. Or least attempting to)

Starting here.